July 12th, 2006

Silly Argument...

I am completely frustrated!  I just got off the phone with T and we argued about two statements I made, and I am still not sure why.  I said "I didn't mean to sleep this late", and "I wanted to have cereal but there isn't any milk.".  First of all, how stupid is it to argue over dumb things like that.  I still have to shake my head.  Her point is that first of all she is frustrated that I say that I didn't mean to sleep in this late, but still didn't set an alarm clock... so really was that an intention of sleeping late?  Secondly she is frustrated that I say that I want milk, but I should instead just get in my car and drive the 8 minutes and go get some.  I just don't know how to avoid saying things like that in the future.  I really wish I could see that argument from her perspective.

Update:  20 minutes after writing this she called back and  we worked it out... She said that she was just stating why she felt frustrated with me, and was not trying to sound argumentative.  I just felt she was voicing disappointment with me in an argumentative way.  I don't think I take real or perceived criticism very well.
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On Religion and being Gay..

I would at one time considered myself a born again Christian, and at some times still do, but I have huge issues with my perception of organized religion.  

I would just like for someone to explain to me how just because I am in love with a woman I am now the object of disdain... because that's how I feel.  You hear stronger words said in the bible about premarital sex, lying and greed than you do about same sex relationships... and how relatively acceptable are they?  The main point that I got out of the Sodom and Gomorrah story was that Lot would sooner have given his 2 virgin daughters to the 'homo's' outside than let them have the 2 strange men that had come to visit.  Neither option would be good (because they would be non-consensual), but apparently violence against women is the better option?

I am in a long term same sex relationship.  I have been in the same relationship for over nine years, and it frustrates me that I have to be extra careful to go through extra measures to make sure that we are safe.  I guess alot of that also comes down to frustration that I have not actually done anything about it yet, but it is so expensive to get a lawyer to get these things done.  God forbid if something happens to T and she were hospitalized... I would have no legal right to visit her, or make decisions for her even though I know she would want me to.  Also we would have none of the other rights that 'next of kin' have.  Her prodigal father has more rights to make decisions for her, legally, than I do... and she hasn't seen him in over 15 years.

I am just tired of being preached to by people who have appeared to live less 'godly' than I have insinuating that I am going to Hell because I choose to share my life with someone of the same sex.  I am not asking THEM to have gay sex or anything...

Whew... rant over.  Don't think this means that I have no room for religion in my life.  I think that the majority of it is invaluable, and I can't really picture my life without any faith structure. The local christian radio station is my preferred music, and I am trying to get the courage up to check out one of the known gay-friendly churches downtown.  I just get frustrated.

... and I really need to get that legal work done.
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Did you ever get the feeling that you were meant to do something extraordinary?

Heroes!  Its a new TV show starting next fall.  Am I the only one that thinks that this sounds particularly interesting?  It looks to me that it has ALOT of potential.. and I hope they aren't going to mess it up.  Amidst the storm of crap I see them getting to spew at us next fall... I look forward to something a little different. 

On a similar note, I thought that the new Superman movie was pretty good, though T was not too impressed.  She thought it was just a rehashing.  X-Men was pretty darn cool we both agreed.  The Spiderman sequel set to come out next summer looks to be pretty darn intriguing.. what with the creepy dark side!  And lastly Wonder Woman... what else can I say...  Joss has reportedly finished the first draft of the screenplay.  I can't wait to see who he hires to play WW herself!  I hope I am not setting my hopes to high on that one.  I just loves me some Wonder Woman!!
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